The year 2007 was around the corner. Someone was sharing to me: "I know that God is telling me something when I hear the same verse/phrase over and over from different sources, say, three times..."
Hmm, i thought. When God speaks to me directly or through a powerful Bible passage or through people, it's usually clear enough at the first instance, right? Won't i get it already?
Uhm, no. :)
Not always (and not often?) :)
As the new year dawned upon us i have come to see this as kind of my motto/tagline/verse for the moment:
"For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power and love and a sound mind." --- 2 Timothy 1:7
When i first started to *really* follow God, i learned what real love is *not*. The past year i started to learn what real love *is*. Throughout this year i was learning about balance, soundness, and completeness. (Please do not confuse balance with fence-sitting and compromise. Saying God is merciful *and* just is the complete truth; obeying God only 50% of the time means you are disobeying the rest of the time.) Fear was something i thought i was already over with, but the more i learn about God and the more i follow, i find that there is really nothing to fear.
And so..."OK, Lord, we'll have the 'power' part next..."
And so i keep on waiting for that 'power' thing.
Recently i am starting to sense a more appropriate motto/tagline/verse for the moment: as already labeled in my GTalk profile,
"Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails." --- Proverbs 19:21
"Ah, but Lord", i was telling Him as i was walking earlier today, "what about the power? That verse isn't really resolved yet for me right...?"
"Don't you see it yet?" He asked gently, with the faintest glint of humor, "The power comes from Me."
(Why is it that i don't get the simplest of truths?)
So...i guess that's it. The power is and has always been with God, which He supplies whenever He sees fit. In my simplistic and still self-seeking point of view, i was just hoping that He'd make me this Super-Wonder-PowerGirl, efficient and excellent in all i do and still having enough time to meet my friends in the mall.
Well, that's still possible, but the key here is His purpose and not mine. Which is exactly what my new, current life verse reminds me. :)
It's time to switch taglines. But these are all just facets of the same God anyway, Who is not completely comprehensible to us yet we still seek and pursue...For apart from His blessings there is no greater reward than experiencing God Himself.
And here i am; already starting to walk with God and now finding out that...*i am nothing*. i have no power of my own to use; no plans of my own to uphold.
Well, yeah. But the One who has all the power and all the purposes that stand firm? He's the One who gives me value --- the One who gives *us all* meaning and significance and the only lasting, real good.
*If*...we let Him :)
If we let God be God in our lives, if our will is freely submitted and conformed to His...
"But to all who received Him, who believed in His name, He gave the right to become children of God, who were born, not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man, but of God." --- John 1:12
*Then* we can have the Spirit of power, love and a sound mind. Then we can see that even if we have so many plans, it is actually His purpose that stands...
And what exactly is His purpose?
"And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose." --- Romans 8:28
Which is another life verse of mine, by the way. :)